I forgot that I did this organizing/moving/space planning thing for a living at one time. It's been a long time since I had a long term, full time job. For a lot of reasons, things that happened less than two years ago seem more like a decade in the past. Back in 2006, I worked for a company that contracted with Intel to move their office spaces and set up new ones. I'd have to get these big groups of people to pack up their cubicles and I'd get a moving crew to take all their stuff to another place in their building. Sometimes they'd move to a whole other building or campus. That seems like a big job. Then why does my house seem like such a big deal? Wait, wait, I already know the answer to this.
A year and a half ago I also worked for a company that also built offices, but furniture and fixtures from scratch. I have to remind myself that I'm a pro!
I picked up a lot of crap from my bedroom floor this morning, it's been terrible for a long time. I'm a DJ so I keep my CD library in there, and week after week I had been putting off shelving the CDs in order. So, I did it today. This whole straightening business is showing me what a perfectionist I am. I was concentrating so hard on it that I missed a big stack of random papers that were sitting on the floor and spilling in a heap off a shelf.
I did a lot of cleanup this evening tonite in the basement after visiting with some friends. Sometimes I get started and without meaning to I just keep going and going until I don't see anything else I can take care of in that space of time. In this picture that I just took, you can compare a section of my work with just the previous blog entry:
I've been doing pretty well, as far as managing my depression. I'm just putting as much as I can into my day to keep busy and checking things off my list. Many years ago I found that even anticipating those feelings, or considering them in any way, made me anxious. I didn't know how to deal with them, but after some therapy and trying different things I can head off the worst of it before it happens. Most of the time. I also have great friends that help me all the time, I have the best friends ever.